You told me I would never lose you, we love to tell those little things, that you will never stop loving me, I like to belive it, I like to hope that is true. You say that you don’t belive there to be only one person, I am not sure I do either, but I belive in you and me now. I know it’s far apart, I know you don’t think that you have explored, that there are so many other things out there. You might be right, and it kills me to see you go, because you are the one for me right now. The one I want to explore the world with, the one I want to have this adventure with. The adventure of the life we live, the adventure of life, I want to explore China, Australia and New Zealand with you. I want to kiss you under a waterfall on a tropical island and I want to hold your hand in Colorado. I want to be there for you when you feel like the world is falling apart and I want to be there for you when the sun is shining.

Can it just be us for now? 

To my free bird - soaring away in the sky

This is that one loveletter I am going to write, and I am assuming it will be epic. I skated along and when I met you, I didn’t know that I would love you. I knew I was attracted to you, your eyes were locked into mine and I just couldn’t bring myself to look away, I couldn’t bring myself to not follow you. And you made it so easy to follow, you were irresistable and you followed me.
First time we kissed I burnt from the inside out and I wanted you there and then. To be cheesy, an eternal flame was lit, and it burns for you, still then I didn’t know I was going to love you.

I came to you and you came with me, and we had adventures, you made me laugh, and I made you laugh, and you made me cry, and we tried to guess each others thoughts and we talked, and we talked and I started to know that I loved you, but I didnt say so. To be loved is something epic and to love is amazing, and your voice made my heart sing and I closed my eyes and built dreams. There were unicorns, yorts and rollerskates, there were travels and there was epic sex... and there was a fairytale, because I wrote a song as I went. I still didn't know I was going to love you.

As a bard from a long gone tale, I wrote a ballad of an adventure that I didn't want to end. A song in my heart that became a melody and a beat.  I was hoping for a comedy, not a tragedy, I don't approve. Time was passing and your hands made my body burn and my tale feverish, still I never said that I loved you and nor did you. I think we both knew and there was only time to tell. 

So that one night, we sat in the car, and you had your warpaint on and we were all serious and you said you loved me, so matter of fact, but that you didn’t know if you were in love with me. I opened my mouth, and I said I loved you, and I knew it was the end of the beginning, I loved you, my heart was so exposed, I just couldn’t stand the thought of losing you.

I love you and I wish that you could see the adventure that would unfold ahead of us, how we could go that extra mile together and how my blisters would hurt less with you and your wings would never burn. YOu just coudln't see it, you couldn't feel it.

I fell real hard this time, I fell back to earth when it was calling and I hurt myself. Food had no taste and the dreams would not let me in. I walked aimless and my bones are broken and the sky so far away.

Maybe this wasn’t that epic loveletter I meant to write, maybe I just feel so much I just can’t put it down in print, maybe it’s just what it is… I love you, and nothing can change it! I know, those words are big... but it's the truth!  

vem är jag

det är en fruktansvärt bra fråga
ibland är jag tvärsäker
ibland önskade jag att någon kunde berätta för mig

I am confused

I am so confused, beyond what I have ever felt before. 

Jag älskar dig

Jag har älskad di sedan dag ett, jag tänker på dig ständigt, jag har t.o.m. sagt det till dig. Ändå lever vi våra liv parallellt och låtsas som om vi inte vet om varandras känsklor.

you are always on my mind

I hurt because I care

I want to grab you, push you against the wall, push my body so tight, kiss you, make you moan, I want to hold you, caress you, and almost violently kiss you, I want to feel you ontop and under me, I want you to take my breath away. I want to be like a cheesy rockballad and I want our heart to beat fast to the rythm of something zesty.
I want to taste you, I want to smell you, and I want your eyes on me and your fingers inside. I can't stop thinkinbg of your sweat with my sweat and minutes turning into hours of just being with you.

I MISS YOU, and that makes me cry