I cant stop thinking

I know I am annoyig, I am even annoying myself.
I know you dont want to fight for this, and it makes me sad.
You are the most important person in my life, I love you.
I do!
I would have done anything for you!
I would have followed you to the end.
I would have stood by your side, whatever anyone else woiuld have said.

You are always on my mind, and the fact that I am not.
Just means that we are not at the same spot.

I should have chosen smarter, I should have not let you into my heart.
You did crush my heart.
And it is still healing and missing you!

You will always have a special place in my heart!
Trust me! Just trust me!

I would never do anything to hurt you! 

When I walked in

I still miss you
I think I maybe always will
Maybe I just miss that what could have happened
Maybe I know it would have been botched

I dont know

I am feeling better about it

Life is not normal

My life may never become normal

It has never been normal